Monstrous frankenstein femme transsexual actualities.
trans cyborgs in cyberspace.
photoshop as an extension of imagination.
etc. etc.
photoshopped image of my chest by wildanchor, a prettier version of my face haphazardly pasted on by me, springtime femme adornments brought to you by blingee.
omg I feel so cute and DUH my butt looks so good in this skirt and I’m forever loving having aesthetics that feel uniquely mine, or at least very personal and crafted from necessity and my childhood and patching up old things and mixing and matching thrifted clothes until something looks wearable and taking style from toxic southern california that raised me and turning it into liberating genderfuckery and yes.
Today is a good day for me and my body and my clothes yay.
I’m all clean shaven but I feel like a naked mole rat and am very prickly. can’t wait to have my cuddly beard back
No big, just my enormous as fuck arms.
(heads up for eating disorder talk)
But can I also say that like I hated my arms so so much for most of my life and it was a big focus of my body self-hate when I was a teen and I huge thing I was always trying to change with my eating disorder. And I remember specifically trying all of these different kinds of diets and exercises that were supposed to “make your arms lean” and was always so mad because even when I was at my lowest weight I still had enormous arms. And every time I worked out they just got bigger. I thought of them as like “undesirable fat arms” and was always so frustrated that none of my shirts fit and it was really the only part of my body (at the time) that kept me from being able to embody the image of the sort of tiny submissive lolita that I thought I needed to be to be loved.
All of that is to say that I’m now way in love with my big fat muscly arms and they make me feel really safe and strong and they make me a very good hugger and cuddler and helper and I love that.
Bein a papa bear at work right now with a sick 2 yr old zonked out on my lap, watching 101 Dalmatians
My girlfriend got me this perfect dress because she knows me so freaking well and I love it so so much
post-swim, saw so many ex-schoolmates, want to vomit, please can I just hid in my hair forever.
Also they charged me 5 bucks this time so poop on that.
platypus-frankenstein swim-suit alterations for a platypus-frankenstein boy
(sry bout the nip-slips, too lazy to reshoot)
So I’ve been on the hunt for an affordable lip liner, liquid lipstick, or lipstain that would match my ultra violet hair. I found this glossy lipstain on sale for 4.99 @ Walgreens today and I’m really into it! It’s Maybelline’s “super stay 10 hr stain gloss”. I can’t speak to the longevity of it yet cause I only got it this afternoon, but the color is killer! (this one is “luxurious lilac”).
The pictures don’t do it justice but it’s a really buildable lilac-to-violet color with blue micro-glitter shimmering throughout. Really neat! Glad I picked this up!
Pardon my post-swim sleepy face
